my life as a sketchbook

I have hidden in a sketchbook and a journal all my life. Time to open the books, reframe the story & time. Copyright Cinders McLeod. All rights reserved

I can’t remember how old I was when I started writing. I know that I was very young. My grandparents raised me and writing become something that my grandmother always encouraged. Writing was a way to escape my real life, a way to cope with cruelty and indifference. Sometimes even worse than the people who hurt you are the people who don’t care you’re being hurt –the ones who could do something but choose not to. I understand it; sometimes you don’t want to get involved and risk having bullies shift their attention to you. That’s normal…that’s fear. I was afraid a lot when I was growing up.

Shane Koyczan, TO THIS DAY, Annick Press publication


Just like life to assign me the spread in Shane’s anti-bullying poem that evoked an early bully memory in me.

I thanked Paula Ayer of Annick Press for givng me words so close to my heart.

That inspired Paula to include some of the illustrator’s own personal stories about bullying in the book. This is mine:

When I was in grade seven, one of the girls in my class taped a note to the front of my desk that read, “Cindy has a big bum.” I remember first feeling shocked that someone would take the time to be so cruel, and then feeling gutted. Up to that point, I had felt pretty good about my bum. The same girl accused me in front of an audience of wearing bargain basement shoes. The secret was out: I wasn’t one of them.

About a year ago, Annick Press asked me to be be part of a group of artists illustrating Shane Koyczan’s performance, anti-bullying poem “To This Day.”

Yesterday I received a printed copy in the post. I’m proud to be part of this important and moving project. Thank you Shane, Annick, comrades and kindreds

About a year ago, Annick Press asked me to be be part of a group of artists illustrating Shane Koyczan’s performance, anti-bullying poem “To This Day.”

Yesterday I received a printed copy in the post. I’m proud to be part of this important and moving project. Thank you Shane, Annick, comrades and kindreds

Happy to be the Scottish enemy within 

The  Scottish devolution referendum of 1997: 1) support for a Scottish Parliament 2)  should it have tax-power. Yes. Yes.

global waring

it was high season for bigots in Britain – and it is still high season for bigots in Britain

Tony Blair once encouraged thinking the unthinkable, but oddly, Hag the Bag wasn’t invited to the table.

She wasn’t invited to any of his Cool Britannia parties either. Thus it ever was.

Tony Blair once encouraged thinking the unthinkable, but oddly, Hag the Bag wasn’t invited to the table.

She wasn’t invited to any of his Cool Britannia parties either. Thus it ever was.

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