my life as a sketchbook

I have hidden in a sketchbook and a journal all my life. Time to open the books, reframe the story & time. Copyright Cinders McLeod. All rights reserved
eternity is a big thing. weighed and found wanting. the art of satire: cut off man’s head leave him standing…

eternity is a big thing. weighed and found wanting. the art of satire: cut off man’s head leave him standing…

my cornish earthfather makes me a hammer dulcimer. more strings than bass but feel the need for high notes now

my cornish earthfather makes me a hammer dulcimer. more strings than bass but feel the need for high notes now

reading my future with gore vidal and tarot. they both say move to scotland

reading my future with gore vidal and tarot. they both say move to scotland

I don’t like competition. Never have. Paraphrasing Glen Gould: it’s the root of all the world’s evils. So it was with a distrustful heart that I attended BBC’s  young people’s traditional music awards house at broadcasting house in London to watch a  working class, Cornish, self-taught  lassie, whom I’d known and loved since she was wee, shyly and brilliantly play her banjo, alongside a handful of semi finalists. Looking back at my rough cartoon, I feel I was too hard on the winner, but i i think the competition itself was fair game, because it was judging a music form that has working class roots, by middle to upper class standards. Call me a big girl’s blouse but I don’t see why we couldn’t have attended a concert that night and just enjoyed each player’s music without having to compare them, without having to to call one ‘best’ and the others ‘not good enough.’ Competitions are a loser’s game. There are always more losers than winners. 

BBC Young Grassroots Musician Award
Dialogue:

Presenter: ‘And the winner of tonight’s grassroots music award received her degree from the Scottish Academy of Music, played in the BBC orchestra, had private tuition from Sir Deceased Namedrop, has a charming but not too thick Gaelic accent, wore a baggy Fair-Isle jumper, played a very expensive violin and smiled at me a lot.’

Judge 1:’ It’s not the genuine presence of the performer, but their stage performance’
Judge 2: ‘It’s not that I forget what it was like to stand up there as an unknown, but …’
Judge 3: ‘I do know better than the other two judges but I had a chance to question class and grassroots and didn’t go for it’

Scene: Where have all the grassroots gone?
Winner: Cutting grass(roots) singing ‘The green, green, grass of home.’
Accordian player: ‘I think we should write a sad ballad about lawnmowing’

I drew up the cartoon and submitted it to a grassroots music magazine. One reader’s response was very angry , but the magazine stood up for me.

I don’t like competition. Never have. Paraphrasing Glen Gould: it’s the root of all the world’s evils. So it was with a distrustful heart that I attended BBC’s  young people’s traditional music awards house at broadcasting house in London to watch a  working class, Cornish, self-taught  lassie, whom I’d known and loved since she was wee, shyly and brilliantly play her banjo, alongside a handful of semi finalists. Looking back at my rough cartoon, I feel I was too hard on the winner, but i i think the competition itself was fair game, because it was judging a music form that has working class roots, by middle to upper class standards. Call me a big girl’s blouse but I don’t see why we couldn’t have attended a concert that night and just enjoyed each player’s music without having to compare them, without having to to call one ‘best’ and the others ‘not good enough.’ Competitions are a loser’s game. There are always more losers than winners. 

BBC Young Grassroots Musician Award

Dialogue:

Presenter: ‘And the winner of tonight’s grassroots music award received her degree from the Scottish Academy of Music, played in the BBC orchestra, had private tuition from Sir Deceased Namedrop, has a charming but not too thick Gaelic accent, wore a baggy Fair-Isle jumper, played a very expensive violin and smiled at me a lot.’

Judge 1:’ It’s not the genuine presence of the performer, but their stage performance’

Judge 2: ‘It’s not that I forget what it was like to stand up there as an unknown, but …’

Judge 3: ‘I do know better than the other two judges but I had a chance to question class and grassroots and didn’t go for it’

Scene: Where have all the grassroots gone?

Winner: Cutting grass(roots) singing ‘The green, green, grass of home.’

Accordian player: ‘I think we should write a sad ballad about lawnmowing’

I drew up the cartoon and submitted it to a grassroots music magazine. One reader’s response was very angry , but the magazine stood up for me.

i kept trying to be an artist i wasn’t

i kept trying to be an artist i wasn’t

i worked dead hard on that graphic novel brief but everything was screaming this isn’t the project for you

i worked dead hard on that graphic novel brief but everything was screaming this isn’t the project for you

i always knew there was something

i always knew there was something

painting heroine for lake champlain monster graphic novel: ‘i always knew there was something’

painting heroine for lake champlain monster graphic novel: ‘i always knew there was something’

roughs for a graphic novel about the american loch ness monster ‘champ’ and his young, female discoverer

roughs for a graphic novel about the american loch ness monster ‘champ’ and his young, female discoverer

frankie, something funny came into my head, & you got to say it without saying it (duke wellington)

frankie, something funny came into my head, & you got to say it without saying it (duke wellington)